Turn Again Home (1951) by Ruby Ferguson

I bought Turn Again Home (1951) by Ruby Ferguson when I was in Inverness a couple of years ago – largely on the strength of having enjoyed Lady Rose and Mrs Memmary about 20 years ago, but… I think I’d have bought a book with this cover regardless of who wrote it. This illustration sums up more or less everything I’m looking for in a novel. A big old house, clearly falling apart? Some people in period clothing who are clearly drawn to it? Yes pleeeease. I was prompted to put it closer to the top of my tbr pile when Gina reviewed it so glowingly.

As it turns out, the house plays a relatively minor role in the novel. But it is perhaps emblematic of what the characters are experiencing: Wright, Vida, Hope and Daphne are travelling back to the northern mill town where they grew up. The fictional town of Hockworth, in West Riding of Yorkshire, is dominated by the mill and its industry, and hints of modernity have done little to change that. But for these four siblings – technically three siblings, because Daphne is a sort-of-adopted-but-not-actually addition to the family – Hockworth is a distant memory. They have all left home behind, and only their brother Haigh remains in Hockworth.

Four of the people who stood waiting and shivering on this February afternoon, while the Bradford to Hockworth local train seemed as though it would never come, had a look of being out of place in their surroundings. It was difficult to say exactly how they were unlike their fellow-passengers, for the difference was subtle, and might be described as the look of metropolitans among provincials. On the man and the three women who paced the platform and occasionally glanced anxiously at wrist-watches, you could see overlaid, like the patina on old furniture, that something which was London and which Snebley Heights – never fear! – recognised and scorned. Their clipped voices, borne on the wind, were like the voices of foreigners.

The reason they’ve all travelled back is for an inheritance from their grandmother. The house on the cover, though I was sad by how little time we spent in its environs. But that is because there was so much else to pack into the story…

The four characters are drawn in slightly broad brushstrokes. Vida and Daphne are fashionable, smart women married to wealthy men, and who most openly look down on Hockworth. Vida is sharpest and most disdainful, and Daphne is something of a shadow of her – she reminded me of the way Kitty emulates Lydia in Pride and Prejudice, though what is being imitated is different. Wright is a bachelor too busy with London business to have time for family, and similarly considers his father’s mill-ownership to be rather provincial and very old-fashioned. Hope’s name is rather on the nose, because she is the optimistic, kind one. Working as a teacher, she is the only one with residual fondness for their home.

I’ll be honest – halfway through Turn Again Home, I was a bit disappointed. It was enjoyable enough, and the writing was good, but the characters were a bit one-note. I could see exactly where this sort of story was going. It seemed inevitable that, one by one, they’d be beguiled by nostalgia and the honest goodness of provincial folk, letting their London airs and graces fall away. It was particularly predictable to have all their old servants, and other working-class characters, be mindlessly delighted to see them again. Every working-class figure in Turn Again Home seemed to exist only to hero-worship the memory of the upper-class characters, without a streak of any negativity or individuality in them. I was enjoying the book, but wasn’t very impressed by it.

And yet… things changed. And I think that was largely the introduction of Jessie. For a chapter or so, we are fully back in the past – in the ardent, forceful courtship of Wright with Jessie, the daughter of a mill-hand. Wright’s parents are not snobs – the community seems to be far better integrated than would be possible in a larger town – but they don’t trust his youthful infatuation to last, and they know that Jessie will be the one to suffer. And they are right.

When Wright and Jessie meet again, in present day, we see a much more interesting character than any of the other working-class people. Or, indeed, than any of the upper-class ones. Her mix of regret, contentedness, dignity, and reproach is done extremely well. The strongest of the stories in Turn Again Home is about the ways Wright will or will not be able to reconnect with the woman he wronged.

Once I’d been hooked on that story, the others got me too. I was right in one respect – of course the honest charm of Hockworth would overcome these London cynics – but I was wrong in others. It wasn’t as clear-cut as that, and there were moments of surprise in the narrative. More than that, though, the characters filled out. Their one-note responses to Hockworth revealed hidden depths and complexities, and the plot became extremely compelling. I raced through the final 150 pages, keen to know what would happen to each member of the family, and unsure whether I wanted reality or fantasy to dominate. Ferguson ends up finding a combination of the two that was much more satisfactory than I’d anticipated.

As Gina said, it’s not an easy novel to track down. I was very fortunate to find it in the wild. But it is on Internet Archive, if that is your cup of tea! I’ll certainly be open to reading more by Ferguson, should I be lucky enough to stumble across them, and will make sure I don’t judge the book too quickly.

Children at the Gate (1968) by Lynne Reid Banks

Nobody immerses you in a world like Lynne Reid Banks. Given how devotedly I love The L-Shaped Room, it is curious how slowly I have read the rest of her works. But perhaps you’ve noticed one popping up here every year or so, and I’m enjoying getting more familiar with her wider work. I started with the ones set in the UK, since I always feel a little uneasy with a ‘Brits abroad!’ novel, particularly one from many decades ago – what sort of attitudes will it take for granted? I’d so much rather read about other countries from the perspective of someone from that country.

But Lynne Reid Banks has the honourable exception that she at least lived in Israel for a good number of years. And the protagonist of Children at the Gate (1968) is, like Lynne Reid Banks, an immigrant from a Western country – in the case of Gerda, Canada. Unlike Banks, Gerda is Jewish. And she has come to Acre (or Acco), Israel, following a recent divorce and a tragedy that we gradually piece together – one that has brought her to the brink.

Gerda’s only friend is Kofi, an Arab-Israeli man who is forthright and caring and suffering his own tragedies. He is easily the most lovable person in the novel, and Banks excels at creating men who are broken but kind – Kofi is like a stronger, more resilient version of Toby from The L-Shaped Room. He is, I suspect, something of authorial wish-fulfilment.

Reading a book set in the Middle East is, of course, a setting that comes with a lot of weight. Banks doesn’t skirt around the tensions between Israel and Palestine, or between Jewish-Israelis and Arab-Israelis, but because the novel is focalised through Gerda, the narrative shares her narrow view. Gerda, of course, knows a good deal about the geopolitical situation. But she is more immediately invested in her own life and her own hurts.

I don’t know how Banks does it, but she takes me totally into any world she creates. We wholly inhabit the buildings or rooms she describes. They become the whole world, and the reader becomes enveloped in the isolation and loneliness that Gerda experiences. It is largely self-inflicted, but that never made pain any easier to bear.

The square outside was pitch dark except for a paraffin lamp hissing high up on one of the arched galleries opposite. Our house has iron balconies but the rest of the square was built much earlier and has a kind of cloister with beautiful arches at first-floor level which goes round three sides of the square. I say ‘beautiful’ because at night they are – this is  Acco’s second self, her night-self, when all the day-smells are lifted from her and replaced by cool sea-winds drifting through her narrow alleys and flooding softly into the open squares; when darkness covers the dirt and squalor like snow, leaving only the shapes, the smooth outlines of domes and minarets against the stars, the perfectly balanced archways, the mysterious broken flights of stairs and half-open doorways, the cold but not unkind flare of a paraffin lamp showing a brief interior, its walls painted in grotto shades of blue and green and hung with prints whose cheap tastelessness a passing glimpse does not show.

Gerda is not satisfied with the life she has jumped into. It is really just an escape from a different, distant life that needed to be over. ‘I walked home through the maze of cobbled alleys and archways and squares. My loneliness was, for once, simple and uncomplicated.’ Banks is a pro at the short, sharp observation, and that reflection on her type of loneliness is not only accurate – it also tells us about the sort of self-analyst that Gerda is. She can be self-pitying at times, but she is the first to assess and berate herself.

I’m going to have to tell you a bit more of the plot, so stop reading if you want to get Children at the Gate and go in completely blind. But, to be honest, the cover and the title of the novel might clue you into something else that is going to happen. And it is the only really clumsy thing that Banks does in the novel. Because, suddenly, all the Gerda can think about is her desperation to have a child. It goes from something she hasn’t really considered to an all-devouring obsession.

Kofi is the man to help her. To save her (from herself, or from loneliness, or fear), Kofi convinces her to join a kibbutz. Lynne Reid Banks lived on a kibbutz and loves writing about them in her novels, often from the perspective of an outsider who finds themselves at odds to the environment. And Gerda is not an easy fit. Even among the other North Americans there, she doesn’t seem to slip into the role with ease. And things get yet more complicated when she ‘adopts’ a young girl called Ella. Her fast-track to motherhood is complete in one fell swoop – and the emotional response has to trail after it.

Of course I don’t know yet the full extent of what I’ve undertaken, but what fills me with anxiety is trying to analyse my own feelings towards her. I am obsessed with the need to make her well, to see her fat and laughing, to hear her chattering away to other children. I watch her by the hour, trying to imagine her with a head of curly hair, with an expression of happiness on her face. And I want her to turn to me. I want that desperately, that, even more than her health, is why I am really doing all this.

But do I love her? Do I love her? Or do I just want her to love me?

Adoption – even the informal sort that Gerda has undertaken – certainly should never be done as spontaneously and selfishly as this. Gerda has clearly adopted Ella to fill a hole she perceives in her own life, and Ella herself is something of an afterthought. And, yes, there are two children on the cover. A second ‘adoption’ follows, of Ella’s brother, and the young boy is violent, angry, fearful and has a vicious, jealous relationship with Ella. Both the siblings are Arab, and that adds further to the unstable dynamic of this new, chaotic family that is ruled by uncertainty. And yet, over time, the uncertainty becomes a sort of fierce love.

I shan’t go any further with the plot, but it is often fraught and often sad, and people behave unwisely and sometimes unkindly. But there is still somehow a force through it – the power of different kinds of love to overcome all the oppositions stacked in front of them. And maybe even the irrationality of love, and the damage it can bring in its wake, even if it comes from the best motives.

And, truth be told, it often doesn’t. Gerda is an immensely flawed character, and if you’re the sort of reader who gets frustrated at people behaving foolishly, then you’ll find Children at the Gate frustrating. But I think I loved it. Lynne Reid Banks creates characters who are so infuriatingly real that I can’t help care about them and want to know more and more about them. They are certainly all deeply interesting – and interesting is the best thing for a fictional creation to be, in my book.

Children at the Gate doesn’t have the life-affirming comfort that I unexpectedly found amidst the squalor of The L-Shaped Room, but it is still rich in life. It has power, vividness, and certainly demands emotional investment from the reader. I’m not sure I’d read it again, but it reaffirms my belief in Lynne Reid Banks’ unusual and sometimes uncomfortable brilliance.

Top Ten Tuesday: Authors I Discovered in 2025

I haven’t joined in with That Artsy Reader Girl’s Top Ten Tuesday for an awfully long time, but I thought this week’s topic was really fun. Every now and then, I make more of a concerted effort to read books by new-to-me authors – and it often pays off brilliantly. In the past, discovering a new author I loved would send me off to read their entire backlist. Nowadays, it’s likely to send me off to buy their entire backlist, and it’s a matter of chance if and when I actually get to the others.

Some new-to-me authors are on my Top 10 of 2025 list anyway, so they’ll definitely make an appearance…

  1. Susanna Tamaro – Follow Your Heart was so beautiful, and captured a voice so perfectly, that I’m excited to read more. Particularly if others are also translated by Avril Bardoni.
  2. Douglas Bruton – I adored Blue Postcards, and I wasn’t entirely sure how that would translate into a book that wasn’t told in vignettes, since I have a particular fondness for that format. As the previous post shows, I needn’t have worried. He is definitely an author I’ll be tracking down everything by.
  3. Bernice Rubens – The Five-Year Sentence was just outside my Top 10 for the year, but she’s the author I’ve followed up on most. I now have five or six of her novels on my shelves, and need to make sure I actually read something else by her this year.
  4. Paul Auster – obviously I knew the name, but had assumed he wouldn’t be for me. Which, sorry to say, is usually my assumption for the Big White Men of American Literature. But I humbly admit I am wrong.
  5. Vincenzo Latronico – I’m putting him here, because I loved Perfection, but… I will also say that Perfection felt like a unique, ambitious gem. I am less certain than other authors on this list that it would translate to his other books.
  6. Gabrielle Zevin – a little after everyone else, I loved Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow – and it is the sort of compelling storytelling that I would very happily follow to another book.
  7. Preston Sprinkle – as well as having an amazing name, Sprinkle is my new favourite theologian / Christian writer. I read quite a few of his last year, and his compassion and wisdom are inspiring.
  8. Harry Trevaldwyn – I started The Romantic Tragedies of a Drama King thinking that it would be a memoir, but it was actually very, very funny YA. Not my usual cup of tea, but would definitely read another.
  9. Sally Carson – like a lot of us, I was pretty blown away by the prescient Crooked Cross. I’m glad to say the first sequel is being published by Persephone Books this year.
  10. Verity Bardgate – I read a couple of her sharp, dark, funny, strange novels last year – Tit for Tat and No Mama No. When I’m in the mood for something excoriating, I’ll definitely revisit her.

Hope Never Knew Horizon (2024) by Douglas Bruton

You might have seen by now that Blue Postcards by Douglas Bruton was one of my favourite reads of the past year. Bruton himself happened to stumble across me talking about it, and very kindly sent me a copy of Hope Never Knew Horizon (2024) – and I loved that one too!

There are three threads to the novel, and it took me a long time to work out how they could possibly relate to each other. If you’d like to maintain that mystery, then maybe skip some of this review – and it wouldn’t have been a mystery to me if I’d properly remembered the note that Bruton sent me alongside the book. I hope he won’t mind me quoting from it.

The genesis was this: “I wanted to write something filled up with hope.” And then…

I stumbled across two people messaging back and forth online, discussing a programme they had seen on the TV about the blue whale skeleton in London’s Natural History Museum and how it had been taken down and restored and rehung; and it had been given a name: the blue whale skeleton was not called Hope!

Then I remembered a poem by Emily Dickinson: ‘Hope is a thing with feathers’ […] And, finally, I recalled a painting I had seen in my early twenties, a painting by G F Watts and it had held me captive for twenty minutes or so when I knew nothing about art, and it was called ‘Hope’.

Three contributions to art or science – three places where the term ‘Hope’ came to the fore. There are no other connections (in reality, at least) between any of the people related to these three creations. But reading them alongside each other forms a curiously moving tapestry of human curiosity, emotion and, yes, hope.

When Ned Wickham is deeper in his cups than any man has a right to be, he tells the story of the Wexford Whale and like I said before he is not ever to be believed. In the weeks and months after, the story grows arms and legs and runs crazy through the streets, hollering with its arms waving above its head. Ned tells how he single-handedly wrestled the whale into submission, up to his knees in the briny, and then took its life with all the heroism fitting of a sabre-wielding cavalryman at the Battle of Waterloo.

Ned is an ordinary, working-class man who knows the sea as well as the land. He does not single-handedly do anything regarding the whale, except he does find it on the shore and is ultimately paid a small amount by the crown for this discovery. It is the first step of many in the whale’s posthumous journey, and it is the only story of the three that is narrated by many different people – starting with a woman who may or may not have a future with Ned.

On we go, through years and years, as the whale skeleton is bought and sold, cleaned and constructed, and hangs high up in the ceiling of the British Museum. Each voice is captured beautifully for however long it is on the page, and Bruton sees so much in the many invisible stages behind a public spectacle.

Next we have perhaps the most famous figure in the novel: Emily Dickinson. Or, rather, we have her servant, Margaret. Her first words are ‘Sure but Miss Emily thinks no one knows’. Dickinson has more than one secret, but the key among them is her deep love for the woman destined to marry her brother. They surreptitiously send letters to one another, and this has a firmer basis in fact than some other elements of Hope Never Knew Horizon, because a volume of letters from Dickinson to Susan Huntington (though not the replies) has been published. It may have been secret from the world, but servants don’t miss anything. What makes Margaret’s perspective so compelling is her investment in the relationship, and in Miss Emily’s happiness, even while she doesn’t fully understand all the implications. She has all the hope that Emily can’t bear.

‘Open me carefully,’ Miss Emily’d written at the bottom of the page. And the letter was to Susan Huntington, ‘Dear and darling Susie,’ she’d wrote. And ‘open me carefully’ and not when anyone is by so that it is a secret just between Miss Emily and Miss Susan, ‘cept now I know and my heart yearns and I look for the postboy now, as much as Miss Emily does, and I wonder where on earth he can be with his dillying and dallying, and I am a little cross when he does turn up and there is nothing for Miss Emily.

Third and final is Ada, an artist’s model known professionally as Dorothy Dene. I will confess that I had not heard of ‘Hope’, the painting by Watts, a detail of which is on the cover. Her introduction shows us the sort of plucky woman she is:

Men’s hearts are so easily won. Just a carefully timed dip of my head, a look that holds his and then lets it go again and a way of shaping the mouth so the lips almost make one half of a kiss, needing only his lips to complete the act.

Ada is another working-class character, making a precarious living in a world of men who are more powerful than she is – yet she holds her own power over them. As with the other characters in the novel, she is on the peripheries of renown and spectacle, though obviously more present than the others by appearing in the painting. But she is very much the subject rather than the artist, despite her self-possession and confidence. Her story becomes one about love and different kinds of love, and what the relationship between artist and subject can be.

Hope Never Knew Horizon would be an interesting novel if it were ‘just’ an unusual slant on three notable moments in British cultural history, told by people (real or invented) whose names are not the sort to be recorded for posterity. But what elevates it above that is Bruton’s extraordinary writing. I do not know how he does it, and I would think it impossible to analyse, but he breathes humanity into his prose with every sentence. That is his special gift: humanity. These are not just characters who are vivid and vital. They are creations whom the author clearly respects, dignifies, and loves.

And, yes, This is somehow a book suffused with hope. There is no heavy-handed moral, or perhaps a moral at all. But I ended it feeling greater hope about the world and the people who populate it. In his note, Bruton wrote “I wanted to write something filled up with hope.” Even after reading two books by him, I can see that that sentiment is quintessentially Bruton. Hope Never Knew Horizon is special and beautiful. If I didn’t have a rule about only including one book by any author on my end of year lists, it would have been a strong candidate for the top 10. I am so looking forward to continuing exploring Bruton’s work, and thankful to have discovered it.

Others who got Stuck into it:

“By the time I started the third story, a mere 22 pages in, I was gripped, transported to that extraordinary utopia of fiction where life is more vivid and meaningful than ordinary reality.” – Victoria

“Douglas Bruton’s haunting writing is the kind that changes you once you’ve read it; this is a truly original and wonderful book and I can’t recommend it enough.” – Karen

“Bruton’s writing is strikingly beautiful, his storytelling captivating and his theme is one close to my heart.” – Susan

The Dutch House by Ann Patchett

Sometimes, reading a book that everyone was reading a few years ago can make you feel more behind the times than reading something from a century ago. I knew about The Dutch House (2019) by Ann Patchett, of course, since it won any number of awards and appeared in lots of best-of lists – but I didn’t really know any details, and for some reason it hadn’t appealed. Thank goodness for book group selecting it. Now that I’ve read it, I can certainly see what all the fuss is about.

The first time our father brought Andrea to the Dutch House, Sandy, our housekeeper, came to my sister’s room and told us to come downstairs. “Your father has a friend he wants you to meet,” she said.

“Is it a work friend?” Maeve asked. She was older and so had a more complex understanding of friendship.

Sandy considered the question. “I’d say not. Where’s your brother?”

That’s how The Dutch House opens, and it is our introduction to the family unit living in the house in question. The narrator is Danny, Maeve’s brother, and he is hiding behind the drapes, eavesdropping. The house itself is hard to grasp. I’ve often mentioned that I don’t have a ‘mind’s eye’ for picturing visual descriptions, so I always struggle with that sort of thing, but I struggled here to even have a sense of its size. There are a handful of small bedrooms – but a ballroom on the third floor. It was built for a Dutch family with ornate mouldings and lavish features, but is clearly quite modern and on a street soon crowded with other buildings and a short driveway. I suppose almost all neighbourhoods in America are modern to British eyes.

To go back to that opening, Andrea will eventually be their new stepmother – an unwelcome addition to the household, who seems to make no effort with her boyfriend’s children and see them as an affront on her new position and home. She is young and beautiful, and perhaps that is why Danny and Maeve’s father has chosen to marry her. Danny, the narrator is looking back from several decades in the future, merging his eight-year-old experience with the understanding of a middle-aged man, but in neither iteration is he particularly good at recognising the motivations of others. It often doesn’t seem to cross his mind. Their mother has disappeared – Danny can scarcely remember her – and none of their questions about her whereabouts are satisfactorily answered. They assume she is dead, but if she is alive then her deliberate absence is a kind of death to them.

Much of the first section of the novel is about the unspoken war between Andrea and Danny/Maeve. It is only after two years of Andrea being a regular visitor to the house that they discover she has two daughters of her own, younger than they are.

Nearly two years into her irregular tenure, Andrea walked in the house one Saturday afternoon with two small girls. Say what you will for Andrea, she had a knack for making the impossible seem natural. I wasn’t clear about whether it was only Maeve and I who were meeting her daughters for the first time, or if the existence of Norma and Bright Smith was news to our father as well. No, he must have known. The very fact that he didn’t look at them meant they were already familiar.

This passage is an excellent example of what Patchett is doing so cleverly throughout the novel. As well as some incisive turns of phrase – ‘a knack for making the impossible seem natural’ – it shows how she interweaves Danny’s different perspectives across time. At the forefront is the 10-year-old who thinks his father might not have known about his potential stepdaughters – followed by the older man realising how absurd this remembered confusion is – then followed, again, with a striking memory that supports his more recent understanding of the situation. Patchett is a subtle, sharp writer, and it is extraordinary how she manages to keep the sensibilities of young and old on the page at the same time. All tied together with Danny’s lack of self-awareness. We gradually realise, as the novel continues, how little he truly understands of almost anybody else in his life – regardless of whether he cherishes them or despises them. His flaws are so unspoken that it takes a while – it took me a while, at least – to recognise that is an unreliable narrator. Not because he lies, but because there is so much he doesn’t know, often without realising. (Incidentally, it felt like such a female voice – particularly in the opening chapters, where I had to keep reminding myself that it was a brother, not a sister, narrating. I don’t know why I kept thinking it was a girl speaking, but others at book group agreed.)

I started the novel thinking that it was fine – relatively well-written, ordinary enough. Somewhere along the way I was totally beguiled. Without noticing quite when, I was immersed and filled with admiration. This is the real deal.

Through Danny’s eyes, we see him and his sister grow older. Maeve is away at college – during which, Andrea moves her things into the attic bedroom. Losing her beloved windowseat, and doing so uncomplainingly, is one of the great wounding moments of literature. It reminded me of Jo March’s stories being burned, though Maeve’s response is certainly much more subdued.

Alongside this, Danny is figuring out his future. His father is a property tycoon, buying and selling commercial and residential buildings, and this is the world that Danny longs to join. Maeve clearly has a brilliance with figures, but it is not expected that she shall do significant further education or join the family business. I never worked out the timeline of the novel, but we must be somewhere around the mid-century, or a bit later.

I don’t want to spoil any further events in the novel, but it covers decades of the brother’s and sister’s lives. Tragedy and the selfish behaviour of others shapes the direction of their lives – but their own pettiness and hubris play their parts too. Danny’s marriage and children are a significant part of the latter stages of The Dutch House, but there is one true romance at the heart of the book. ‘Romance’ is probably the wrong word, but I mean it in a sexless way: Maeve is always the focus of Danny’s attention and care. She is the most interesting character in the novel because she is the most interesting character in Danny’s life. He never states it outright, but her wisdom, kindness, and determination are sacred to him.

Which is not to say they never argue. Arguing is their main form of communication. Patchett writes an adult sibling relationship so well in The Dutch House – the sort of relationship that is central to many people’s lives, but seldom addressed in fiction. There is a depth of dependence and trust between them, and a bond that cannot be equalled in any other relationship. It is beautiful, even when it is frustrating and occasionally unhealthy. She captures the sibling dynamic so perfectly in their quippy dialogue, which darts between openness and occasional secrecy. The depth of their care for each other means that some things are kept hidden, for the perceived benefit of the other. And, again, we gradually realise that there is a lot about Maeve that Danny has never truly understood.

I kept thinking that Maeve would be a better title for the novel. She is the narrator’s first and last consideration, even his obsession. She has played sister, father, mother, friend, mentor, and even the cover is a specially commissioned portrait that appears in the novel. But calling it The Dutch House is clever: it keeps the home in our thoughts, even when the narrative moves far from it. It gives the reader an expectancy that the house will return. The legacy of their upbringing is this strange, almost fantastical, home casts a long shadow over their lives. And for reasons they never fully understand, in their 20s and 30s they often return to the house – not to go inside, but to sit in a car outside, smoking and talking.

“This isn’t a stakeout. It’s not like we’re here all the time. We drop by every couple of months for fifteen minutes.”

“It’s more than fifteen minutes,” I said, and it might well have been more than every couple of months.

There is a sharp line later in the book, where Danny realises he is nostalgic not for their childhood, but for the times in the car outside their childhood home. Not for memory, but for memory of memory – filtered through his sister and their conversations.

There is so much in The Dutch House. Whole careers, marriages, twists that wouldn’t be out of place in a murder mystery, but which are played with an almost subdued thoughtfulness. Patchett reminded me of Barbara Kingsolver, or perhaps Carol Shields. Writers who are not reinventing the novel form or taking it into new, shocking directions – but are taking a traditional novel, focusing on characters and their development, and simply doing it with exceptional skill. She elevates the genre. That is Patchett’s real brilliance: to make her creations live so vitally and vividly that it feels important to witness their world.

I hope this doesn’t sound over the top, but few novels convey so successfully how monumental it is simply to live a life.

#146: Our Top 10 Books of 2025

Our favourite reads of the year! Welcome to episode 146.

We turn the whole episode over to our run-down of our ten favourite books from a year in reading. As has become a tradition, we will then choose one book from each other’s list to read for the next episode.

You can support the podcast at Patreon – where you’ll also get access to the exclusive new series ‘5 Books’, where I ask different people about the last book they finished, the book they’re currently reading, the next book they want to read, the last book they bought and the last book they were given.

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Rachel’s top 10 books are:

10. The Anxious Generation by Jonathan Haidt
9. Small Domb at Dimperley by Lissa Evans
8. The Butchering Art by Lindsey Fitzharris
7. Voyaging Out by Carolyn Trant
6. Crooked Cross by Sally Carson
5. Catherine Carter by Pamela Hansford Johnson
4. East of Eden by John Steinbeck
3. Perfection by Vincenzo Latronico
2. A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara
1. Braided Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer

Simon’s top 10 books are:

10. Mrs Dalloway: Biography of a Novel by Mark Hussey
9. Bookish by Lucy Mangan
8. Love by Elizabeth von Arnim
7. Catherine Carter by Pamela Hansford Johnson
6. Perfection by Vincenzo Latronico
5. Treasure Hunt by Molly Keane
4. The New York Trilogy by Paul Auster
3. The Equations of Love by Ethel Wilson
2. Blue Postcards by Douglas Bruton
1. Follow Your Heart by Susanna Tamaro

The other books and authors we mention in this episode:

On the Calculation of Volume vol.1 by Solvej Balle
The Dutch House by Ann Patchett
Mrs Dalloway by Virginia Woolf
The Voyage Out by Virginia Woolf
The Hours by Michael Cunningham
Their Finest Hour by Lissa Evans
Anne Bronte
Lady Living Alone by Norah Lofts
A Curious Friendship by Anna Thomasson
The Spring Begins by Katherine Dunning
The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck
Cannery Row by John Steinbeck
The Winter of Our Discontent by John Steinbeck
Hetty Dorval by Ethel Wilson
Dept. of Speculation by Jenny Offill
Gilead by Marilynne Robinson

The Visited (1959) by Joan O’Donovan

The Visited by Joan O'Donovan - cover with bright pink header, gothicky font, and melodramatic illustration of woman looming over a man

The Visited (1959) by Joan O’Donovan is yet another book that I’ve read because of a post by Brad. Well, if he starts a post by talking about ‘misfit spinsters’, you know I’m going to get hold of it, don’t you? Of the various novels he covers in the article, this one appealed the most – the ill-fated attempts of an ageing spinster to find a husband and, thereby, escape her domineering mother. When my copy arrived, it had puff quotes by writers as various as J.B. Priestley, Penelope Mortimer and Elizabeth Jenkins on the back. Here’s how it opens:

In spite of the revival of Irish, the new hotel was called the Magnifique, perhaps because there was no word in that ancient language to do it justice. One’s first impression was of hysteria. It was full of pink light and chromium, and so imposing that it destroyed entirely the proportions of the Georgian square.

This is the background for a holiday that Englishwoman Edith Crannick is taking in Dublin. Her first mention is a one-sentence paragraph: ‘Edith Crannick was as miserable as hell.’ She was, we quickly learn, ‘bored and lonely’. Brad’s review describes her as being in her mid-thirties, though an early paragraph says: ‘At intervals, Edith reminded herself that she was fifty-three and old enough to know better.’ I’m going to come onto ages later, because they confused me a bit.

Bored and lonely as she is, Edith is not initially particularly excited to meet Leopold Darkin. He is also English but a rung or two below her on the social scale, or at least he seems satisfied with his social standing where she aspires to better. Having instantly dismissed her as unattractive and not worth bothering about, he finds that beggars can’t be choosers and approaches her out of sheer boredom. It is not an auspicious start:

He looked round for Edith, and when Edith saw him coming towards her she bristled. She had noticed him, and she didn’t like the look of him. She disliked the way he stuck out his elbows and rubbed his hands. She disliked the way he hovered and smiled, and, even more, the way he frowned and looked important. He shouted at waiters and he looked at women’s legs. In fact, he was a little pip-squeak and she saw no reason why she should talk to him.

It isn’t very promising, is it? Well, that was on page seven. By page ten, she is giggling at his jokes and somehow they have charmed each other. The relationship is cemented by him resucing her from drowning in the sea – O’Donovan leaves it just about unclear whether it was a suicide attempt on Edith’s part – and they are devoted to each other from then on. As luck would have it, they even live a few streets apart from one another back in England. There are subtle elements to The Visited, but the sudden gear shift from distaste to love is not among them. As with quite a lot of the novel, I felt myself wishing that O’Donovan had been a bit wiser with her talents. She is in many ways an excellent writer – but she hangs this writing on a plot that is pretty structurally unsound in places.

But the real meat of the novel is back in England. Leopold lives with his daughter Caroline – not quite young enough to be adorable, but not old enough to be too much of a problem either. His wife, he explains, has run off and abandoned him. The divorce hasn’t come through, but it’s a matter of time and the sort of awkward arrangements that were necessary to provide ‘evidence’ for a divorce in the mid-century. Edith is content to wait… for now.

Back at home, Edith’s mother is indeed domineering, but not in the sense of shouting or putting her foot down. Rather, she plays up her vulnerabilities and helplessness. Some of it is clearly real, and some is very much affected. Whatever the occasional flimsiness of her plot, O’Donovan is very good on character, and particularly the ways that people manipulate one another. The reader becomes as infuriated as Edith with Mrs Crannick, who is quietly determined to keep Edith at hand and never finishes a sentence or thought.

Mrs Crannick addressed herself to Leopold:

“When you get to my age, you know, you don’t really sleep. I haven’t slept for… But I can’t complain. Are these for me? How very… No, I can’t complain; I’ve had more than my three score years and… I’ll be eighty-six next birthday, Mr…?”

“This is Mr Darkin, Mother.” Edither whispered to Leopold, “Hold the fort, darling; I shan’t be a minute.”

She wetn out to the kitchen, shutting the door after her.

“I don’t recall the name. Have we met? I’m afraid Ede gets very cross with me. I forget, and… I’m stupid, you know. It must be very irritating. Such an intelligent… a real career girl. I’m afraid I get on her nerves…”

You understand the type, I am sure. And it brings me onto ages. If Mrs Crannick is 85, then it makes sense for Edith to be 53. A little while later, Caroline thinks: ‘She liked to know people’s ages. You got some surprises. For instance, Daddie was only twenty-seven, even though he was going bald.’ Firstly, I was more or less bald at 27, Caroline, so lower your voice. But secondly – is this true? Is this a joke on O’Donovan’s part, that Leopold has lied to his daughter about his age? Or is this really a novel about the love between a 27-year-old man and a 53-year-old woman, because that would be a much more unusual and radical approach. I’m leaning towards it being a joke, because surely otherwise the age gap would have been a central plot point?

Gradually – but not that gradually – The Visited becomes a different sort of novel. This is not about unlikely lovers battling the expectations of her mother and the jealousies of his wife. It is a much sadder, in ways more predictable, plot: a woman being lied to by a man. Edith knows that marriage to Leopold is her final hope for stability and independence from her mother. Leopold knows… that he has not told Edith the whole truth, and it is increasingly unlikely that she will find that out.

Again, O’Donovan is very good at the manipulation between characters, and there are sharp moments of disillusion. I loved this line: ‘She looked at him curiously. She had almost forgotten that, at their first meeting, he had reminded her of her mother.’

Ultimately, O’Donovan doesn’t seem to know how to maintain subtlety. The plot of the novel descends into moments that would fit better in a schlocky Gothic horror than in a thoughtful novel about hope and deceit. I gradually realised why it appeared in a cover as garish as this one. Some of the expectations of genre created by the cover seep into the plot.

This was O’Donovan’s first novel, and it feels to me like the output of an excellent writer who hadn’t yet worked out how to control her work. Now, of course, those three illustrious authors quoted on the back disagreed with me. And you may find the meeting of genres – the instant-falling-in-love combined with more melancholy, philosophical takes on ageing – is more to your taste. I really enjoyed reading The Visited, but felt continually haunted by the rather better book that was hiding somewhere within this one.

The books I bought in Derbyshire

Over new year, I was staying in Derbyshire with an enormous number of friends and new-friends. As it happened, we were only a stone’s throw from Scarthin Books and Scrivener’s Books, as long as you are pretty good at throwing stones a long distance. With Project 24 over, I was excited to get back to unbridled book buying. And, reader, the bridle was off.

Here’s what I laid my hands on:

No Man’s Street by Beverley Nichols
I had finished gathering books in Scrivener’s when I thought I’d just duck down and look at the books shelved underneath the till. It turns out, that’s where they keep first editions and other special books – and my leapt when I saw this Beverley Nichols novel I hadn’t even heard of. It turns out it’s his first detective novel and – gulp! – it is SIGNED by him! Given its scarcity and the signature, I think it was pretty reasonably priced – but I still went back and reshelved a few less-vital books to make way for this one.

Holidays on Ice by David Sedaris
I’ve listened to the audiobook of this one, but I guess I’m a Sedaris completist.

The Elected Member by Bernice Rubens
Set On Edge by Bernice Rubens

One of my favourite discoveries last year was Bernice Rubens – though I only read one and I’ve since bought five more. So I should probably hold off buying any more until I’ve read some of the pile awaiting me.

Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri
This was one of my favourite books last year, but I listened to the audiobook. I knew I wanted a copy on my shelves at some point, but there wasn’t any great rush – so it was lovely to stumble across a reasonably priced one.

Daughter of Time by Nelia Gardner White
As coincidence would have it, I took a Nelia Gardner White novel with me on holiday (The Pink House), though I didn’t actually get round to opening it. Daughter of Time looks interesting – it tells Katherine Mansfield’s life in novel form. I’m a little wary about the idea, but also intrigued enough to give it a try.

If I Were You by P.G. Wodehouse
Cocktail Time by P.G. Wodehouse

Laughing Gas by P.G. Wodehouse
I vowed I wouldn’t buy any more Wodehouse because I have SO many unread books by him. But then I came across three shelves of the beautiful Everyman hardbacks – they have reprinted more or less everything by him, and in such striking editions that it takes a lot of resistance not to buy them all. As it is, I didn’t resist buying these three – including Laughing Gas, which I listened to about five years ago and, like Interpreter of Maladies, loved enough to want on my shelves at some point.

On the Calculation of Volume (vol.2) by Solvej Balle
As you might have seen in my previous post, I absolutely loved the first volume in this series – and so, the very day after I finished vol.1, I had to buy this one. (Scarthin Books also sells new books – I wasn’t quite blessed enough to find a secondhand copy in the wild.)

So there we go! Book buying officially restarted with vigour and vim. Anything that particularly catches your eye?

On The Calculation of Volume (vol.1) by Solvej Balle

On the Calculation of Volume cover

The first book I finished this year could well be a candidate for my Best Books of 2026. Wonderful to be off to a strong start!

I’m definitely behind the curve, so forgive me if you already know all about this book – in 2024, I saw so many people writing about On The Calculation of Volume by Solvej Balle, published in 2020 and translated from Danish by Barbara Haveland. It is going to be a seven-volume series, with six published in Danish and three out so far in English. And all of those seven volumes take place in one day.

Fear not, this is not a Ulysses-style novel where a single day is stretched out across thousands of pages. Because while all the action takes place on 18 November, there are many different days: Tara Selter, our narrator, is stuck in a timeloop.

Balle makes the decision not to start the novel with the first loop. Ever since Groundhog Day, we are used to watching or reading the protagonist struggle through the initial confusion – staggering through all the stages of grief, really, from disbelief to bargaining to despair. It is so apt for the tone of On the Calculation of Volume that we start on day 121. The first sentence could be chilling – ‘There is someone in the house’ – but we quickly learn that it is simply Tara’s husband, Thomas, doing his daily rounds of boiling a kettle, finding tea leaves, making a cup of tea. Every day, she lies awake in the spare bedroom, hearing the normality of his routine.

We do, of course, learn more about the initial whirr of the timeloop. The confusion, when Tara wakes up on 18 November when it should be 19 November. The various attempts to break out of the trap, and the repeated explanations she makes to her husband each day. But there is something peaceful and calm about this opening that seeps through the whole of the novel. This is not a woman in a state of panic.

I have an hour and a half in the house before Thomas gets back. I have time to have a bath or wash some clothes in the sink, I have time to take a book from the shelf and sit down with it in one of the armchairs by the window.

If I spend the time in the living room, I usually listen to music or read until it starts to get dark, but today I am staying in here, in the room overlooking the garden and the woodpile. I heard Thomas take his coat off the peg and I heard him leave the house. I opened the door into the hall, the packages are gone from the floor, and now I am sitting at the table by the window. It is the eighteenth of November. I am becoming used to that thought.

I am not the first to say it, but what makes On the Calculation of Volume so special is Balle’s resolutely feminist, domestic take on the strange, quirky genre of the timeloop novel. In some many examples, the device is used in a fable of power. The hero is trapped, and must escape. The hero might even be hunted without the timeloop, trying to avoid a murderer. He might be facing an ethical bargain with some unseen arbiter of the timeloop – if only he makes the right decisions, he can reassert dominance over time.

But not here. Tara is, it seems, at peace. Her marriage is loving, a meeting of minds – and, indeed, business partners, running a rare books company together. And there are elements of the timeloop device that seem to cater to this calmness. Tara does not restart each day in the Paris hotel room where she initially awoke on 18 November – rather, she begins wherever she ended the previous iteration of 18 November. For weeks, she does this in bed with Thomas, and has to start each day with an explanation (which, incidentally, is always believed). By Day 121, she has decided to live in a kind of isolation in the spare room. Later in the novel, she tries other forms of created domesticity.

Unlike so often in the genre, it never feels like Tara is at war with the timeloop. Rather, she is finding space within it. This a rich, beautiful novel that celebrates and inhabits the domestic on every page.

I don’t think it was an act of will, but slowly and almost imperceptibly I managed to extend my sense of neutral, indefinite morning. I concentrated it, intensified that pale-gray awakening and with each morning I found it possible to carry that sensation with me further into the day. After only a few mornings I could hold onto the moment long enough for it to encompass everything in the room around me: the bed linens and Thomas’s body beside me, the wall behind the bed and the wardrobe on the other side of the room, a chair with clothes on it, the morning light, the faint sound of a chimney flue door rattling in the wind. These are familiar sounds and sensations and it is still an ordinary morning, it is spacious and open, and I lie in bed while fragments of the world drift in and dissolve: a brief riff of birdsong, a blackbird defying the gray skies or a robin singing into a pause in the rain, three or four notes to start with, then six or seven, then eight, and each one as it burst forth dissolving in my fog.

I keep using similar words – domestic, calm, peaceful, beautiful – and these are the things that make On the Calculation of Volume so special. What Balle has achieved in one book is extraordinary. I bought the second as soon as I finished the first, and I will join the throngs eagerly awaiting the books appearing in English. An unusual masterpiece.

2025: Some Reading Stats

It’s time for some reading stats! Always such a fun post to put together, and I love reading other people’s – do pop a link in the comments if you’ve done something similar. As usual, I’ll be comparing to last year’s stats – and hopefully you’ve already spotted my 10 favourite books from last year’s reading.

Number of books read
I read 216 books last year, which might be an all-time-high? The next stat will explain why it is so high – a rather surprising 27 books up on the previous year. I know we always say it’s about quality rather than quantity, and I don’t think it was the best year ever for memorable reads, though I did read a good 20 or so that I think are superlative. Any year with at least one wow-this-is-so-good book is a good year.

Number of audiobooks
This is where the numbers ramped up. I listened to 94 audiobooks last year, up from 71 last year. Which means my print total (122) is very similar to my print total the previous year (118). I wonder if this number will go down now, since I have cancelled my Audible subscription – but also have discovered the bounty of BorrowBox and Libby.

Male/female writers
I read 145 books by women, 68 books by men, and three books by men and women. That means it was 67% books by women – I’m always surprised by how consistently I read around two-thirds books by women, since I don’t set any targets or intentions around that. (The previous two years have been 64% and 69% female writers.)

Fiction/Non-fiction
My fiction number barely changed since 2024 – up to 142 from 138. The book jump was in non-fiction – up to 74 from 51. Which means 34% of my reads were non-fiction, whereas it usually hovers around the 25% mark. One of the reasons is because I tend to prefer non-fiction audiobooks (or very plotty fiction), so the audio binge bumped up the number. Usually I read more non-fiction by men, but women won 44 vs 30.

Books in translation
11 books, one up on 2024. They were from Italian, German, Japanese, Spanish, Korean, Polish, Hebrew, and Persian.

Re-reads
Matching 2024’s all-time-high of 18 re-reads. I even read Mrs Dalloway twice in 2025 – both via the exceptional audiobook that I have evangelised about a lot. As always, a lot of rereading was for podcast, British Library Women Writers, or book club, but I did listen to a lot of Jane Austen too.

New-to-me authors
Half of my favourite books from 2025 were by authors I hadn’t read before – and, across the year, 91 books were by new-to-me authors. That’s 42%, extremely similar to the previous year’s 41%. Again, I didn’t set any targets, but I do like the idea of meeting new authors.

Persephones
My ambling-along attempts to read more from my Persephone shelves never seems to actually happen in any significant way. This year, it was just one – Crooked Cross by Sally Carson. (And 75% of another that isn’t very good, but I suspect I’ll finish eventually.)

Most surprisingly good book
I was delighted to fall for two books by authors I’ve read quite a lot of before – Catherine Carter by Pamela Hansford Johnson and Treasure Hunt by Molly Keane. Hansford Johnson and Keane were both on my list of ‘enjoyable but not exceptional authors’, and these books were both head and shoulders above the others I’ve read by them. I also never expected to enjoy Paul Auster as much as I did.

Most disappointing book
I hadn’t realised that This Little World by Stella Benson was travel writing rather than fiction, and she was so much less fun and quirky than usual. And I had hoped to love Ariel by Sylvia Plath – you’ll have to listen to the Tea or Books? episode on that for our controversial takes on Plath’s poetry.

Best title
There is something about Snow Road Station by Elizabeth Hay that (accurately) made me sure that I would enjoy it. People To Be Loved by Preston Sprinkle has the bonus of a good title and a truly excellent author name.

Worst title
No Mama No by Verity Bargate is a very good novella about a young mother struggling in the most off-kilter way – but that title makes it sound like those dreadful misery memoirs that cluttered up charity shops in the early 2000s. (The other novella I read by her this year, Tit For Tat, was also very good – but when you realise what the title is referring to, it feels rather too much on the nose.) Honorary mention for Follow Your Heart by Susanna Tamaro, which was my favourite book of the year but has a title that sounds like fridge-magnet philosophy.

Most misleading title
Trial By Terror by Paul Gallico sounded like a schlocky horror novel, but was actually a politically interesting look at journalism, war, integrity and a good dollop of adventure thrown in.

Was this book written for me?
It is lovely to read a book that feels so purposefully created for my tastes. This year, that was Recommended! by Nicola Wilson, about the Book Society. Thankfully it was also done extremely well.

Animals in book titles
I had an all-time-low of only three last year. This year… seven:  Proust and the SquidRabbit Foot Bill, The Swan in the Evening, The Snake Has All The Lines, My Good Bright Wolf, The Blind Owl, Somewhere, a Boy and a Bear.

Strange things that happened in books this year
A girl tasted emotions, a murder was solved from purgatory, a woman obeyed her diary, people got lost inside a rubbish dump, ex-lovers went back in time, a man restarted his day multiple times to fix his mistakes, children spontaneously combusted, a plague killed all but one woman, an apocalypse killed all but one household, a man levitated in his sleep, a fortune teller fooled herself, a gameshow sent contestants to parallel universes, and Georgiana Darcy travelled through time to solved a murder on the set of Sense and Sensibility.